Dreams

Oh shit. Last night I dreamt that I slept until. 11:30 the following morning, which is bad because I work 8-12 every morning this week. I missed my entire shift and then when I got there the next day and apologized to my manager, some apocalyptic monster was hatching in the work area of pierpont commons O_o then we were trying to escape this, but some of my coworkers got sliced up because they didn’t have sincere souls. :l I tried cautiously to escape and made it, but then some guy threatened to fire me if I didn’t get back to work on the other side of the counter. I gave in, then woke up to find it was 6:45. I still had plenty of time to make it to work, even from central campus. *whew*

I was with a few other girls and their mom on the beach. One of them, an older daughter, kept saying something about getting a good spot on the beach early, but it didn’t make much sense because there were only a couple other people where we were. They wanted to take a picture of their mom in front of the water. As I was getting the camera set up, their mom was standing in place facing away from the water, so she couldn’t see the wave coming at her. this was a monster wave that took her off her feet before we could even say a word. Once she recovered, we decided it would be best to leave the beach. as we were walking down the beach, the sand got rockier and rockier, eventually piercing and scratching our bare feet. I understood what she was talking about, getting a good place on the beach. But as we went along, monster waves kept coming, and we kept getting caught in them. Soon enough the entire beach was flooded, and we seemed to be inside a boat or airplane or something, which was also someone’s house. it was dark and there were a lot of people. we were all trying to get out but didn’t know the way. every time a wave came up, it would soak the books on the shelves on the walls. I tried to look at the titles to see if there were any worth saving, but I couldn’t bring myself to take any of them. I just got myself and Sam out of there before the stuff we were carrying with us got stolen or we were raped or something awful like that.

So I had a friend (played by Joseph Gordon-Levitt) who was really depressed, so I went with him to his first appointment with a psychologist and waited in the lobby. Everything seemed normal for a while, but the hospital was somewhat like a magical maze: some corridors and stairways disappeared after we passed them, and it was nearly impossible to find our way out.

Someone called me and asked for directions to the Arboretum and to the airport, because Brian was tagging along with whoever was going to the airport to go pick up his black Jeep. So I gave them directions, and I was headed to the airport as well for a short vacation.

A few months after coming back from that vacation, I saw my depressed friend and he told me his psychologist didn’t want to see him anymore, which didn’t make any sense to me. in the months before I went with him to many appointments because I didn’t want him to get lost alone. I tried to convince him to make another appointment with someone, but he just responded,
“It’s been a year.” I took that to mean it’s been a year since he actually saw someone. “I’m going on a walk.” I wasn’t sure if he was going to come back at all, ever, from his tone of voice. So I ran after him outside my apartment without any shoes on and walked with him. We exchanged a few words and I told him needed to go back for some shoes. He said No. I pleaded with him to wait for me to get soem shoes on if we were going to be walking for a while, but he insisted. Then I kissed him and walked backwards toward my apartment as we continued kissing. He caught on to what I was doing and told me “you don’t need to go back for those.” Then he held the sides of my arms, and gently lifted me off the ground. when my feet touched the ground again, I saw there were converse on my feet, and realized this was a dream. We could control everything that was happening.

We continued walking, arm in arm, more genially, into the dimming night. We came to a street where cars were passing by speedily. I started to feel the normal anxiety and terror I get when I see headlights moving too quickly, of course with the fear that these cars will lose control and get in accidents, crash into me. So with that thought in my mind it started to happen. A small toyota skidded sideways toward me, and another car smashed into its side from another angle. I looked at my friend and he nodded. I knew I had to take control of the situation. I tried with immense effort to imagine something else that could happen on the street, but the chaos of smashing metal and the stench of burning tires kept me off balance. Suddenly, I thought of a mall. A busy outdoor corridor where people are crossing like they own it. The thought still wasn’t strong enough to stop all the commotion. I bellowed out the command for this situation to turn into an outdoor mall.

I opened my eyes. There were people, just walking, going about their business, talking, laughing. The cars were gone. Lights were strung above the walkway, giving a friendly and romantic ambiance to the place. I smiled at my friend, and we walked across the street to what looked like a bar. We ordered drinks, and he got a few cookies. For some reason we silently decided to pretend we didn’t know each other, so we were each socializing with other people we knew at the bar. They didn’t have what I was craving on the cookie menu, so I convinced them easily to make some chocolate chip raspberry/boysenberry/blackberry cookies, and it was such a hit that they decided to add it to their menu.

At some point it turned into this completely nonsensical thing where people were trying to get ahold of this monster which was being held in a box in a cage in a locked room of a pirate ship. These thickheaded barbarians couldn’t figure out how to unlock the door, so I used my cunning to be captured and put in the room with the monster, then I simply opened the door from the unlocked side (after letting opening the monster’s cage). I sprinted out of the room past the barbarians, then climbed up the ladder to escape to my friends. Brian and Holly were thrilled. 

I went home, and my friend was there too. He decided he wanted to take a bath, and that sounded like a good idea to me, so I got in with him. The water was hardly warm enough for me, but to him it was almost scalding, so I just dealt with it. We were very close and physical and passionate. I don’t know how else to say it. I woke up when I was about to tell my friends about it.

I invited Shiann, Tori, and Octavio to dinner but none of them came to the restaurant. I wanted to wait for them but my sister told me to go ahead and eat, so i ordered some appetizer and called them. Tori and octavio said they would be there right after they dropped danny off at the airport with dana, and shiann just thought it was supposed to be at a later time. turns out octorio was in san diego and had to drive all the way back up to the bay. I was pissed. so I went home. somehow ended up naked while making someone’s bed. I think Justin beiber was there, wanting to sexually experiment. I ran to hide from someone that was coming up the stairs so I could put clothes on really quick, they caught a glimpse of me and thought I was in my pajamas. uhh so sam and I go look at her new apartment in a square type thing. there’s a music store and a restaurant in this square specifically, but I’m not sure if other people live in this area. so we go there and take a family member who is in a wheelchair, rolling the person across the asphalt. I start thinking about the end of the world, and what if there are so many cracks and chasms in the earth, it would just be impossible for this person in a wheelchair to survive. 

Zach commuted suicide. In the style of Dr. Parker. I immediately woke up and freaked out, trying to imagine ways to save him in my dream, grieving already…

I don’t remember all of it, but I was following some movement/choreography that Vero had made up and we were going to present it to Ms. Marshall. I failed miserably at remembering everything without looking at Vero. I don’t remember anything other than that.

So it’s the first day of classes at Michigan and I’m trying to figure out how to lighten my load between classes. I left y backpack with my bike all tied up at one point… not so bright. At the end of the day I went to my temporary dorm in Bursley hall. I went in the wrong elevator and ended up in the wrong hallway, but I found my way since I knew a few people who lived close to me. They wanted to go out to a party right across the way at some big house, and I went out to get my backpack off my bike. Somehow my shoes were removed, and I lost my housing card key thing. I was very frustrated. Then someone tried to take away my friend’s title of social director/guide and took away her pink cape… this chick tried to give it to a kid to attract more families. I told her the social guide/director should know a lot about Michigan and be experienced and communicate effectively. The little kid gave the pink cape back. Then I saw on instagram on someone else’s phone that the party in the house had begun, DJ and drinking and all… So I went off to find my things and then Snape tried to give the title to Neville Longbottom via a surprise court case the next day. I was very frustrated. Suddenly these kids ran by me and skateboarded off with one of my things. I chased after them and then when my bike was in view one of them tried to claim it. I yelled at them and threatened to make them go home because that’s what they least wanted. Then I woke up. 

This was a strange one. I was moving out of this house and my family was rushing me to get the hell out of there, so I was just shoving all my stuff in a big suitcase. Then we took a break, my mom was in the bathroom, and I went to get my things from what I thought to be her room. I heard a knock on the door, so I said “come in.” When I looked to see who was opening the door, there was no one. The door opened and closed on its own. I was paralyzed with terror. Then I felt something hot hit my chest that almost knocked me over. It spread and pulsated throughout my body and I stumbled over to balance myself on the desk against the wall behind me. I tried to scream for help, but no sound was capable of coming out of my mouth. I was stuck there without anyone near me, terrified and in pain…

When I finally came out of it, I went to look for my mom, but found Sam instead. I told her what happened and she seemed unimpressed. I found my mom and told her what happened, and she just seemed annoyed. It was quite obvious that both of them hated me. Sam and I ended up fighting and tearing up the house in the process. We threw things at each other, threw punches, ran all over the house… When we got downstairs to the living room, everyone looked at us like we were crazy. We stopped fighting, then I finished packing my bag. I looked up at Zach, but he was mad at me too…

When we were in the car on the way to the airport, I tried to talk to Zach or hold his hand or something, but he would not respond. I left him and the rest of my family with my tail under my legs, leaving for a first-class flight to Tokyo. So the flight left the ground a lot earlier than I expected, because there’s usually a lot of ground time waiting for traffic and such- but not with this flight. I was going to text Zach from the bed that came with the first-class package, but the plane landed suddenly because it was out of gas. The crew in charge of the plane were leading us through a warehouse looking at suitable planes to take, though none could compare the the one we had originally been in. We ended up on a plane that was like a small cargo plane, very dark, no windows, and one tv with loud speakers, not headphones. I wasn’t going to watch tho movie, so I texted Zach then instead. 

I found out he was in some strange place far away whose name began with C. He was showing me pictures/video of the location, which was very tropical and picturesque.  I was suddenly there with him, and we were in this little village that was being destroyed by the spirit of the skies with a parasite in him, because I didn’t save my game last time I played and now that I was seeking thing out differently, they were harder. The goal was to repair the giant basin of water and take it somewhere, but also defeat the metal army and get the parasite out of the spirit. Zach and I both had bows and arrows, but he was being lethargic and an asshole. He didn’t want to shoot an arrow and defeat the army, he wanted to let them take over. I threatened to do it for him, even though he had to do it himself, but he just shrugged and crossed his arms, looking at the carnage. I joined the village people’s army against the metal army, and we fought them, taking commands from the alpha female of the village. she told us to line up and close in on the dozen or so metal monsters, but this didn’t really work as she hoped. We were too weak and the metal monsters surrounded us, about to crush us, when I woke up. 

somewhere in there I played a game with zach and a friend to go searching for a place in the city… and manny asked me if I swim, and I said yes, even though I only ran long distances up and down and around the peninsula. He told me to join a triathlon or long swim or something and win to get the family some money.

I’m not sure, but there was this small house or shack that we hung out in during the school year, and not the only people that came to it were me and dylan and a few of his friends. 

My aunt worked in a food court and it closed at 6pm to allow the workers to change shifts, but I couldn’t decide what I wanted… I don’t remember who I was with but they were benig very impatient. I saw people that were locked outside the food court thing angrily trying to get in while workers cleaned the table and swept and such. suddenly there was a stampade of people through the doors and I went out a side entrance. 

I had to go in a boat that only fit 3 people and went underwater, I remember Alex was there but I don’t remember why or what he was doing. goofy brought the boat to us and I thought I really don’t mind if I get damp. I got in the boat and was waiting for the other people to climb in, then I woke up. 

I went to michigan and ended up not getting the dorm I was assigned… it was really small, one room, no bathroom, one bed. -__- my one roommate was a princess bitch and felt entitled to everything so I had to walk on eggshells for her. I then befriended a little girl with dark skin and she was sad to see me go. (I don’t know where I was going but I was in the back seat of a car my sister was driving) I hung out the window and told her something inspiring, and called her a princess because she deserved to be treated like one. Then I sunk into my seat and looked at the book I was supposed to read, which was erotica. I was like uhhhh no thank you and looked out the window. we went into an intersection and grazed the back of someone’s car, but instead of stopping, Sam just drove away. 

Some dude got really angry and started lecturing people in this fancy building about his anger and evil plot. he was throwing shit around squashing people and breaking windows with huge boulders. once he was done talking, everyone tried to run and escape to find a safe place, and the closest place was a macy’s. yeah. so I was going there with my mom and sisters and manny and they kept getting distracted wanting to shop! I just wanted to get as far away as possible from that building where the bad guy was, but the farthest “safe” place (inside macy’s) was with the silverware. so I tried putting all the silverware into airtight containers and I was thinking about supergluing them shut, when I looked back and saw different births happening on many different escalators. They were all my mom. I looked to the farthest one, expecting it to be sam’s birth, but the doctors led her away after the baby was born and left the baby with my dad, who was freaking out. I figured that baby died early, and I thought I remembered my mom telling me something about her first baby not lasting an hour out of the womb. I sprinted over there to get a look at what would’ve been an older sibling, and ended up taking her from my dad. I held her properly and all the chaos seemed to stop. I held her for two days and she stayed alive. I wondered if I was messing with the past and altering my future, but I had one more sister in my arms and I felt such love… we were all on a bus going somewhere and my dad pointed out that if he was in a wheelchair as a veteran then we could have like half the bus to ourselves. I tried calling my mom to see where she was, but my aunt picked up and told me she and someone else were taking care of Cosmo and everything was fine. I was very annoyed and said “ugh, nevermind.”

I wanted to do this tap class, because it looks fun and sounds cool and stuff >.> well, I was at an opening that looked like an entrance under a tree to part of the forest in Skyward Sword, except it was a shallow stream instead of a path. I saw these two indian people- one small girl who was friendly to me, and one older boy a little younger than me, tapping in flip flops through the stream. I thought it was most interesting, so I followed them and asked them to teach me how to do that, making the boy quite uncomfortable. He ran away and the girl told me he’s just a big crybaby. I followed where I heard him go, and I entered this water community where all the buildings had colorful mosaic or tile steps into the stream/pond that surrounded them. I saw the boy and once I came within a few feet of him, he seemed captivated, almost hypnotized. it was all a big mystery to me, but something else happened and then he tried to seduce me. It didn’t work. 

then I woke up :P 

on a plane with tori

we land at some airport with a feminine name

I go to the “minor females” bathroom

tori rips the door from my stall down

I get really mad

then I wake up to find my arm falling asleep 

Zach and I walked up a hill to go somewhere, came across Ms. marshall’s house and saw Brigit and Johann and their dad. I was complaining about my knees ad then Zach disappeared when I got to Ms. Mlad’s house. we went out and started riding this horse which started to walk on its hind legs and whose back turned into that of a camel. there was a bunch of tall dead grass around ad the horse was this orangey auburn color… then I got off the horse as Mlad went to go put him away, then when I turned around I saw a bunch of foxes that were the same color also waling on their hind legs and looking like they were trying to communicate. I was freaked out.*

Then there was a show and the millers were dealing with lighting in the cafetorium and they changed it on the 2nd night. there was one part where I couldn’t get the lights bright enough cause they reset the board and got a lot more lights to work, so I was being very scrupulous. Quynh started to test the stability of the poles they put up for the lights, swinging around like an acrobat. Then I saw people start changing into their prom dresses and I did so myself, though my dress wasn’t the blue one. I didn’t want to put that one on until Zach arrived. It was a similar orangey-auburn color, and prom was inside the cafetorium, which was looking like a pro theater. I still had my pre-prom dress on for most of the night because zach wasn’t showing up. I went out to the carpool I came in with Jeff and Anisha. Anisha had changed in the car and told me she started to cry, I don’t remember why though. Jeff was in his car on the computer with someone, so I was like Meeehhh. I looked into the car next to us, hoping to see zach, but he wasn’t there. I was going to change into my blue dress, but I had a hard time getting Jeff to leave the car. so he started driving around in the rain on the highway as I was getting my blue dress on. Then I woke up.

*at some point in the dream there was a spider in a box in a room which I loved dearly. It could do a bunch of awesome stuff, like spin webs not attached to anything and in massive quantities for a spider. there was this girl obsessed with me saying I was her girlfriend, but she was so psycho I didn’t want to argue with her. I just explained to zach/the spider that she was psycho and trippin. 

I had taken a bunch of good reference photos of my friends who I was going to draw, and someone else wanted to use my best picture that I was planning on using so we decided to trade off and I was going through his photos, one of which was these guys sitting on toiles right next to each other. I then went on a bus with a friend and we talked about art. once they gt off a girl sitting in front and to the left of me started talking about how amazing watercolor is and how hard it is to dance this certain style, and while she talked I was hoping I would get a commission from her (maybe it’d be a rose), then how I prefer acrylic, and ten how my friend would dance full-out all the time so his/her core was always sore, and one time we were on the beach marking our choreography and the friend was tired and in pain and I just shook my head as I looked at my dad. 

then I got off the bus and walked towards Zach, who was standing inbetween this building and a parking garage. in the parking garage was sam’s camry, which had all the stuff I’d forgotten at my dad’s house, so I took my pill and continued to walk to Zach cause I had something important to talk about.  I wanted to walk fast so we could talk in the car, but apparently my mom and her sick friend were coming as well so we had to walk slow to accommodate the sick friend’s need. then someone asked if the car had been cleared out and I answered no, wait yes I did that, I shoved everything to one side (in real life yesterday I had to stuff all of sam’s shit in the trunk so there would be room for groceries). then as sam got closer to the car she started calling me a dumbass, why would you shove everything to that side when you know we have a guest who wants to be comfortable in the front seat, then I remembered I didn’t shove everything to one side, most of her stuff was put in the trunk and there were only a few things on the floor in the back seat. then we got to the car and she was still mad at me for not doing a thorough job so fucking dumb why would you even do that. then I just got frustrated and yelled at her, “Do you think I knew three days ago that mom’s cancerous friend would be riding in this car, which you left dirty and is full of your stolen goods?” That woke up the baby, who was in his car seat between us. I said I’ll just sit in the trunk if there’s no room left in the car, but there was enough room for me… then I woke up. 

I’m not really sure what happened to Zach once Sam showed up in the dream, but I got the feeling that he didn’t want to talk about what I wanted/needed to talk to him about, like he was avoiding me and maybe felt guilty. :(

so the new text post page took really long to load, so I forgot a lot of my dream. All I remember now is that there was a group of people in angry or upset/violent condition and then randomly a Kate Bush song came on.